This is from now on my new motto to live by. There is no sense in getting comfortable with anything cause as soon as you do, boom baby, change happens! I am okay with change, I know it's got to happen in order for me to become a better, stronger person...but seriously, can't I just enjoy finally knowing, liking, appreciating and getting into the groove of something just for a little while longer? This seems to apply to everything in life. As soon as you "get it" or start to really appreciate something in life, you are thrown a curve ball. Some recent examples in my life:
My job...change is inevitable as a government employee and I am totally used to it in this part of my life, but seriously, huge changes need allowance for adjustment! We merged with another department a year ago. I am finally in the swing of the new programs and policies and now implementation of an entire new computer system are in the works and I am on the training team starting immediatly! This is why love for my job is lacking.
Church callings...teaching Sunday school, not an ideal calling for me. Took a lot of getting used to and a lot of anxiety. I taught gospel doctrine to the entire youth in our ward(our ward struggles a little with organization). I love the youth in the ward. Seriously outstanding kids with so much potential and incredible testimonies! This is why I struggled with the calling, because I was teaching a broad range of ages and wanted to be able to teach the lessons just right for each individual teenager. So, I finally started to feel like I was meeting the needs of the class and Jason and I were talking about how much I really enjoyed my calling and yep, the next week I am meeting with the bishopric and being released and called to a new position. So now here I am again feeling inadequate and anxious.
Being a mom...Owen has been a really great baby. Laid back, easy going, happy. He has gone through his phases and I have adjusted. I felt like things were going really well, being a mom was hard, but really fun too. Well, Owen has learned "no" and to cry when unsatisfied about anything. Enough said. p.s. I still love the little man, just got comfortable and so he was forced to change!
My body...I am not one to complain a lot about my figure, not because I think it is beautiful, but because I don't put in the required effort to make it what I would like it to be. If I am not working on my abs, I shouldn't expect a flat stomach, right? Anyway, I came to terms that unless I was going to TRY to have a cute body after Owen was born, that I wouldn't. That was okay with me, I was comfortable with that. Apparently too comfortable! It's not okay with me anymore. Guess I am going to have to start participating in the exercise programs rather than just watching them(really, I have been known to do that).
These are the changes I am currently adjusting to. Now this may sound whiny, but that is not what it is...it is simply stating the obvious. I am all for change. It's got to happen and I will deal with it. I am just going to try to remember to always find something negative about whatever it is I am enjoying so that it will stay the same for a little while. Just kidding, but seriously.